Filed under The Joy & The Pain

Dear Dad & Universe

Dear Dad & Universe

Universe – I was not ready for this. An overwhelm of fear and sadness is not what I meant when I asked for time to stop.  I’m left to wonder if with great blessing, comes great tragedy. Is that how you find balance – and if so – what the hell universe? Thank you for … Continue reading

Finding the Light

Finding the Light

I’m craving an orchard. A place to behold and celebrate life in this potent harvest time. A place to work, find peace, smell the dirt and feel the simple heat of the earths light… the crunch and crackle of the wind. A place where exhaustion is won through joyous hard work, instead of defeating stress. … Continue reading

Big Girls & Freight Trains

Big Girls & Freight Trains

Who is this little girl? I’m looking over pictures with a crazy mixture of pride, awe and disbelief at the little person she has become. A far cry from the colicky, needy, anti-social babe who couldn’t be bothered with large groups. And forget about a party. But now – she IS the party. She’s charming … Continue reading

Happy Birthday Sugar Bean

Happy Birthday Sugar Bean

Sugar Sugar – pumpkin girl, little light of my life. A year ago today you stormed the gates to join our hearts and our home forever. Before you were born I wondered what you would be like. Would you be shy, or outspoken, would you prefer funky sneaks or high heels?  Once you arrived –full … Continue reading

THOUGHTS ON MOTHERS DAY

I thought I knew what I wanted to write about Mothers Day. My entire post was almost complete before we headed out to meet friends for a celebratory lunch. We had a great afternoon and on the way home I returned all the lovely texts I received from friends and family on my first Mothers … Continue reading

GRANDPAS ARE FOREVER

4/18 Thinking about you, lying in your hospital bed and wondering what you must be thinking. How you’re feeling, if the medication is allowing you to think or feel at all. My mind is scanning memories like old newspapers on a microfiche screen, slowing down to pore over the ones that must be so potent, … Continue reading

BABYGIRL…

BABYGIRL…

This week you: -got your first two teeth -waved hi and bye-bye to us -made peace with the gym childcare -perfected your high-pitch shriek -took your first bike ride to the beach -hung out with mommy and daddy at a party…no tears -grew up just fast enough to make my heart explode with pride and … Continue reading

Says Who?

  Aspen is a smidge over seven months now. Someone asked me today whether I was working again and even as the words escaped my mouth, “No, I’m still on maternity leave”, I wanted to laugh at my own response. Ha! Girl, you’re not on leave anymore, that’s called UNEMPLOYED. At what point does “maternity … Continue reading